28 Then Jesus said, “Come to me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest. 29 Take my yoke upon you. Let me teach you, because I am humble and gentle at heart, and you will find rest for your souls. 30 For my yoke is easy to bear, and the burden I give you is light.” (Matt. 11:28-30 NLT)
Lord, thank You for being willing, even desiring to meet with Your people, with me. And thank You, too, for the dreams in which You speak to us. I had another. Parts are obvious, but I want to hear what You want to tell me about it.
Part of the time I was riding on a bus driven by a Mr. Works. He was not a nice person and when someone did something to displease him he would take it out on them in the sadistic ways he knew would most affect them physically or emotionally. I watched this go on and wanted to see Mr. Works pay for the pain he inflicted. I endangered myself by snooping around his office and then I knew he was watching me as well. One day I heard a lady say the owner of the bus was going to sell it. I knew it was to Mr. Works. I mentioned to the lady that I had been riding that bus a long time, ever since I was a child.
I know You want to speak into my life on this, Lord.
“You have been riding the bus of works for a long time, and I don’t mean the works you do for me and from Me out of faith and love. Rather they are the things you do to enhance your own feelings of safety, control and significance. Much of your bus route you learned as a child. You came to the conclusion that this was a safe way to live and not get into trouble with those in authority. Initially, you thought this was what I wanted from you, too.
“I know you get satisfaction from accomplishing tasks, crossing things off a list, but Mr. Works is a hard taskmaster. He is unreasonable and can be sadistic in torturing you with thoughts of guilt or of not measuring up, even if it is to your own standards. Works has been another way of hiding, being in control, trying to keep the reputation of how others perceive you safe and positive. Never mind you were hurting inside. To be exposed as less than in some way was to feel shamed. At least this was the lie being fed to you.
“I have wanted you free, walking in joy. Your significance comes from being a person I carefully created and painfully redeemed. The enemy and all his demons worked overtime to keep you from understanding that. Acknowledgement is definitely the first step and I know you feel lighter already. You can see light through the cracks in your barricade. I will be with you and show you every step. It will not be as overwhelming as the Liar-Shamer is telling you. Keep close.”
One more question, Lord. Who is the owner of the bus and why is he selling it?
“This focus on works apart from faith is demonic in nature. The bus is your life which is mine by creation and redemption. You only perceived it was sold to works. I want your life to be full of grace and what you do to be done in love for Me, family and others– from beautifully broken to beautifully remade.”